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Last Fri was Sandy's birthday... Had fun but apologetic towards LiJiuan... coz i felt that i was a bad friend... that day she doesnt know the way to Sandy's chalet... so she called me.. then Sandy's friend guided her.... while Vincent was playing the video for Sandy, she called me again.. but i dun noe where she was n had no idea on how to guide her we had miscommunication then i even said that we were watching video.... that was so mean of me... i shld have help her.. she must feel lost n angry at the time...

when she reached, she was tired and when we(me n junling) ask her abt how she get here n whether she feeling okie, i knew her it was not so although she said she was fine... i could see tears but i dun want to mention it coz scare she cry... I'm so so so sorry and i want to say "VERY VERY SORRY" to her for neglecting her... really really sorry...

Overall for this week, although today is only wednesday, the mid term of a week... i think i had off-days... dun feel really good... Monday actually going out with Fang but she was sick... (pity for her.. hope she get well real soon...) yesterday (tuesday) feel so down n sianz... so went to find Jeslyn for a chat... reach home at around 9something then had a scolding from mom.... haiz...
today, felt very "bu shuang" inside... everytime we had a "meeting" in sametime at office... sometimes i felt so insignificant in office... everytime i send email to the rest in office, they normally view it "invisible" and ignore it... N the thing is, the email is regarding work.. although not all are like that but i loathed emailing them... as sametime, as for today, i asked something in there n nobody replied... although for me i occasionally nv replied to the things they say, but it is either i nv see it or feel that its too lame to answer... then for them, they do not respond promptly, its okie for me but sometimes they expect me to respond immediately... like got one time P asked me to see the msg quickly... actually not one time la... but fine... then jus now i jus asked some questions N it about work, no one answered... so i asked again... still for a while everyone ignored... then finally jia jia replied.. i also asked P to see the msg and i think she thought it was jus some wuliao thing so she felt very disturbed.. so i told her it was abt work not "fei hua" then she clicked to see... for them, its like they will get immediate respond when they toking in the same space as me.... Am i so insignificant to them... everything that i said was not important at all?